run devil RUN

woke up damn late today ...
when for afternoon jog -.- ( wad goes in must eventually come out sia... i ate a burger then vomit while jogging lols)
then i felt so tired.. so i lied down on the field ( since i was the only one there on this lovely sunday afternoon)... when we begin to ignore how fast time pass... what are the disturbance we have around us... u will begin to realise how peaceful this world is..
millions of thoughts were passing through my mind at that moment..

although it was hot.. it was a breezy afternoon... i begin to reflect about what i have done this year..all the events.. all the joy.. all the sadness... all the everything that i have did ...

isn't life good if we are easily content?

this year was a year that i had a long long break...

i ran away
from my problems... and i promise myself to face my problems from now onwards... during the period whereby my uncle fell ill, i indugle myself with work, work and work and even more work.... i left house early to avoid talking to my family.. i came home late to ensure that no one talks to me.. and i jus took up more and more jobs and kill my self with jobs...

then i move on to working camps.. in search of my personality and learn how to be dependent... yea i enjoyed it.. but i realise when i am working too much i am neglecting alot of people around me...i am a mother person. i nag and nag and care too much that hinder people from moving away from their comfort zone.. and this can be good and bad...

i realise i was too busy working that i had no time for my friends...and friends are important cos they are rainbows! so now that i realise this.. i am definitely going to make time for my friends <3>

then i got into uni... i guess without sushan or jac.. i probably die.. cos i dun get information myself.... i tend to hear from ppl.. so this is sth that i mus mus mus change... learn to survive on my own ! can't be over dependent on others... yea must change this =D

in life there are always setbacks... it is dependent on how u get pass them and learn from every experience so u can really grow up .... i used to ting that wy others have things that i dun have.... but nw i learn to cherish things that i really have....

i love my parents! especially my mum... for her strict discipline... even though she dun put makeup, have dark eye circles, white hair....still she is beautiful... both my parents have worked hard to bring us up... i know that the scholarship will lessen ur burden .. i wil try to get it if i can...but i seriously hate to be involved with the powers of the society.. i dun like biasness.. i dun wan to work with someone that i am not interested in... i dun like politics!! i am tempted to work under doctors for experiences but ... can i please dun be invovled with him? why must he allocate me to the same section doing the same knid of work?

i know i have my limits.there is only a certain extend that i can go.. but i asure u that it is the furtherest i can stretch... i appear to be happy but do u know whats my trouble? i wan u to be happy and work lesser..rest more.. i wanna lightened ur burden..

and u.. stop judging me.. i dun wan to grow into someone like u! fuck off thanks

in summary --- JIAYEN IT IS UR TIME TO GROW UP...